The doubt is probably seeping through your mind as you read the title of this article, “How many magic mushrooms did he take before he did this?” Fair question, even one of my friends has asked me the same thing! The answer is zero. This was all done with no other medicines or substances.
How did this happen? Well, I was on a body de-armouring retreat and it all went down there.
What is de-armouring?
A duck, deer, horse, antelope, or zebra (and other animals) all have mechanisms to release trauma – as humans, we do not have the same natural inclination to release trauma. If you go to the local park, you will see a duck flap its wings after having a squabble with another duck. In this energetic release, the duck can come back to its into presence.
When a human being has an argument, or feels grief, or feels one of those feelings that make our body feel tense, it just stays there. Unless you vigorously shake your body every morning, you are almost certain to be walking around with huge amounts of PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). I’m sure you can only imagine how bad it is for those who have been through abuse or fought in a war. War veterans aside, we all have PTSD in our bodies, no matter what kind of life we’ve had.
Our natural state of being is one of bliss, joy, love, power and expansion. But our personal histories and life experience get in the way. Each of us resists this natural state of bliss at some level by protecting ourselves from harm. These defensives take the form of mental, physical and sexual armouring.
This de-armouring process releases these blocks quickly and effectively to help you fully open to bliss. This process includes waking the body into an orgasmic state followed by pressing on certain points of the body (including the sternum, under the ribs, and hips). After this, there then comes the possibility to go into a genital massage. For men, this includes stretching of the penis and vigorous work in the groin area.
What happened to me?
It was day four of the retreat and we have already done some intense work and I am feeling very open. My body is also super sensitive, so much so that I can feel the energy moving through me when there is non-touch bodywork (it looks a bit like sexy reiki to the observer). The woman I am partnered with starts by helping me settle into my body with a light touch before moving into the pressure points on my body. The previous day I released a lot of emotions with pressure on my sternum, I cried so many tears. Today, it was my left hip that put me into this crying frenzy once again – I cried more tears than I’ve cried in the past twenty years combined. The tears were coming from a deep place inside of me – I did not know what the tears meant, I just knew they had to come out. My partner presses firmly into my hip with her thumbs until the tears stop. She then proceeds to the genital stretching; by this point, I was in an extremely relaxed state.
It wasn’t until after all this was over and she sat next to the side of me and put one hand on my heart and one hand on my groin that I suddenly started tripping out into a blissed nirvana state. After about two minutes (with my eyes closed) I could see her as this purple/blue energy being and energy circulating between both of our bodies. I could still consciously think at this point. Most of my thoughts were along the lines of, “Wow, this is beautiful. What the heaven is happening?”
What was happening?
Good question. I believe it was a DMT (Dimethyltryptamine) trip in my own brain. Every living thing has DMT in it, it is one of the active ingredients that help us dream and is said to be released in a large quantity when we die. It also helps us reach spiritual planes and experience oneness.
In my case, I had reached such a state of deep relaxation (from the bodywork) that my own brain decided to give me a little DMT treat. At the time I didn’t know what it was but subsequent conversations and research have lead me to this conclusion.
What did I take from this experience?
To hallucinate like this blew my mind open to what is possible in the human body and has made me even more curious to bring you articles and education like this in the future. I am so thankful for this experience and reaching such a nirvana, bliss state. I believe that many of us are only touching the very surface of what is possible in our sexuality, there is so much more to be revealed.